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Maybe its because i have a bad family history of cancer...and in some ways this experience is affecting me...and i'm the sort who tries to block things out from my system. Maybe i'm trying to escape from facing reality. </div><div>My mood wasn't very normal just now..weifen said i show attitude abit just now, weird lah i got mood swings like pms like that..sorry if i irritate u just now, i dun mean it.</div><div>This is very depressing...i can't wait for friday.</div><div>And i my heart goes out to Aisyah..i still hope its somewhere to be found.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div></div> </td> </tr> </table> <br><br> </table> <table> <br><br> <div class="font"><select style="font-size:8pt; color:#333; font-family:georgia; background-color:#fff; border:0px; padding: 0px; width: 600px;" onChange="location.href=this.options[this.selectedIndex].value;"> <option value=''>your achieves are here.</option> <option value="http://abarofchocolate.blogspot.com/2004/08/">2004/08</option> <option value="http://abarofchocolate.blogspot.com/2004/09/">2004/09</option> <option 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