HARI INI HARI TERBODOH AKU.
MCM SIAL.
HOW CAN I BE SOO FORGETFUL?
I WENT TO STARS NIGHT AT WRPS COS ZAKI'S PERFORMING DIKIR BARAT. I ASSUME ITS HIS LAST AND MOST GRAND IN WRPS.
MIND U THE COST OF ONE TICKET IS 30BUCKS.
SO ME N UMI N FAATIMAH WENT. IT COSTS US 60BUCKS..
MY MUM REALLY WANT TO GO SO SHE SAID I BRING VIDEOCAM ALONG TO RECORD THE PERFORMANCE.
GUESS WAT..
I TOTALLY SCREW THE VIDEO FOOTAGE UP.
ITS LIKE SHIT. ZAKI'S PERFORMANCE GONE N REPLACED BY THE CLOSING CEREMONY.
THE MISTAKE: AFTER FILMING ZAKI'S PERFORMANCE I WENT BACK TO THE TABLE WHERE WE'RE AT TO LOOK BACK WHAT I'VE JUST FILMED, TO C IF I REALLY RECORDED IT.
I FUCKIN FORGOT TO FAST FORWARD THE TAPE TO THE END OF THE SCENE WHERE
I LAST STOPPED.
END PRODUCT: ZAKI OPENED THE PERFORMANCE WITH SOME PANTUN OR SUMTHIN FOLLOWED BY THE OTHER STUFF THAT I FILMED TOWARD THE END OF THE SHOW FOLLOWED BY THE TUKANG KARUTS TURN SINGING.
ZAKI'S PERFORMANCE TOTALLY GOT DELETED.
BY ME..ME.ME.ME.ME.ME
FUCKIN' TRASHY LIL PIECE OF SHIT, ME.
I FEEL SO TERRIBLE. WILL SOMEONE JUS PUT A GUN IN MY HEAD N PAINT THE WALLS WITH MY BRAIN.
I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE'S COUNTING ON ME N I JUST BETRAYED THEIR TRUST.
I'VE NEVER FELT SO GUILTY MY WHOLE LIFE.
N I FEEL LIKE JUST THROWING UP THE FOOD THAT I JUST ATE THERE COS IT SEEMS THAT WE WENT THERE TO JUST EAT.
THE WHOLE FAMILY WUD LOVE TO C THE VIDEO N I'M THAT BITCH WHO RUIN EVERYTHING.
MY MOM N ZAKI SURELY AM DISAPPOINTED. I CAN SENSE THAT...
WHYWHYWHY...I CANNOT FORGIVE MYSELF...ITS ALL MY FAULT...
I TINK I ND TO OPEN MY OWN FIGHT CLUB N HIT MYSELF.
I WUD'VE GV EVERYTHING TO TURN BACK TIME.....
IF I CAN COMPROMISE WITH GOD..I DUN MIND STARVING FOR THE NEXT MONTH OR WHATEVER SHIT THAT CAN HAPPEN TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO MEND WHAT I'VE JUST DONE.